Let's be dramatic.
I'm not sure if any of you have ever felt this way. I'm not sure what I am feeling, one word I know is I'm feeling 'mixed up'. I don't know what is going on here, right in my head and what is circulating inside my body. Maybe the sickness is the main cause, also maybe the feeling is the trouble maker.
Why do I feel this way? I don't know, just know that I don't want to be in this condition, feel like this, be so negative, feel super down. I'm really trying to get better. Trust me, I really am. I'm struggling here, battling with my illness and inner self to the point that I am not sure what I am doing.
"...when you feel like hope is gone, look inside you and be strong, and you'll finally see the truth that a hero lies in you" I don't see a hero in me. I see only a miserable me, feeling weak and sleepy but couldn't sleep. I see only the paranoid and negative me, I don't want to be like this. I hate it when I'm like this. And trust me, I'm really trying to be better.
Let me end it here, at least I can make my readers not able to understand this post.
xoxo