Have you ever missed the old you? Or have you ever wish you could turn back the time where you could only care about things that make you truly happy?
I miss the old me a lot. I miss the carefree, worried-free, and high self-esteemed me so much. Saying so doesn't mean I want to avoid getting old and am lazy, it's just that I am pleased that I had a great great time when I was younger and those times are worth telling and sharing.
I still remember me studying hard for exams although I knew I could cheat. I do not deny cheating but I want to stress the joy I had in learning. I studied Math very hard that I could do very well in the exam and got the highest score in the school and was very proud of myself. I left the exam room with confidence that I did it all right even my outstanding male friends were talking about different solutions to the tests.
I still remember me reading in my granny room right after I came back from school. I lied down on my back reading detective and romantic stories until I fell asleep and woke up to see I had three missed calls in my 1200 Nokia phone that I used temporarily. And I didn't bother calling back.
I still remember the time that all I cared about and was curious about was who the murder was or how the author would end the stories. I still remember the time that all I feel regret about is not buying the detective stories but the romantic ones instead.
I still remember going to school and sitting in the class listening to my friends talking about their chats and about 'Online', 'Yahoo Messenger', 'Skype', words that I was not familiar with and couldn't imagine how people were able to talk via those stuff.
I still remember getting so occupied by the words mentioned in the stories than the surroundings, the noisiness of the classrooms, and the laughter.
Some times I wonder if in 5 or 10 years from now, I would miss the time I'm living now like I miss the time I had 5 or 10 years ago. Maybe not at all, maybe I would look back and wish I could have done the opposite of what I'm doing, and if that so, I will fail to accomplish my life goal again - to eliminate regrets as much as I could. Labels: About Me