There are times that you know what you want, and there are times you wish you know what you want - and somehow right now I'm in between these types of times.
Being a 21, I'm confused if the tract I'm walking on is what I want. I struggle at some points where I ask myself what I want, and what kind of life I'm aiming for. I'm lost when I ask myself what really makes me happy, and what is really the definition of success that's defined deep down my skin.
Every day, I'm bombarded with negative thoughts, too much of some things that ain't gonna take me anywhere. I read many how-to comments from different people - that helps temporarily.
It could be true that most of the time I'm not happy, I don't know why. It's like I've lost contact with myself, my deep down self. Doing things that I don't really want it, and end up feeling terrible afterwards.
Some times I find myself pleasing people to the point that I don't really know what I'm doing. It's a part of living together, maybe (I convinced myself).
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