Thida's Blog, Mic's Blog: A Dream [Short Story]

I have known Liz since grade 8. Back then, we were just normal friends. We hanged out in groups and talked to each other like other friends did. Because we have the same family name, our friends matched us together.

I wasn’t sure how much I liked her until one day she felt sick. She was absent from school for the whole week. I was worried. I didn’t know how she’d been doing; I couldn’t call her because she didn’t have a phone. I was told that her parents were very strict so I decided not to visit her alone, but I planned to gather my classmates to visit her the next day.

To my amazement, she showed up! I was excited just to see her again. Her friends asked her about her illness, but at that moment, my ears turned deaf, I didn’t hear her words, I could only tell how pale she was.

Since then, I had an excuse of chatting to her via Skype to ask if she was doing fine. And since then, we got to share our concerns and worry towards one another. Months later, we were in relationship.

It has been 7 years we’ve been in relationship. Our friends are envious of our love. Some asked when will be our big days. At first, I had a wide grin on my face every time I heard such question, but now it’s not the case.

We have drifted apart, well, we don’t break up. We have less time for one another. Liz has chosen medical science to study. That eats much of her time, plus, in the evening she has to help in her father’s clinic. She has a tight schedule. And it seems hanging out with me was not in her to-do list.

At first, I was fine with that. She said the study would be hard for the first few years; now we are in year three already, but Liz seems to get busier. I’m no surprised seeing her working hard with her study and career, but I feel somehow lonely every time I want somebody to talk to and she is not there.

Sometimes, when I want to know how Liz has been doing, I ask her friend, Mona, who was her classmate. We grow close without us noticing it. I’ve been seeing her a few times. We have things in common, and more importantly, she is less busy and she needs somebody to talk to so that she could forget her ex.

Weeks passed, she confessed she has fallen for me. She asked me to break up with Liz and be with her. I didn’t know what to do, so I told her I will mull it over. I told Mona that I want some time to think so we should not meet often.

Since the days she confessed, I have been haunted with nightmares. I can’t tell which one I love this moment. It is unfair for Liz. Even though she can’t spend time with me, I dare to say she would not see other guy if I didn’t have time with her. For years, she has been faithful and caring. I won’t find anyone like her. But Mona, I can’t tell what kind of feeling I have for her. She is more beautiful, it’s the truth. It would be cruel to reject her while she’s just got over her break up. But what if Liz knew about my secret dates with Mona, would she hate me?

I could sleep only 1 hour that night. And within these 60 minutes, I had a dream. A dream that could change it all. A dream that tells me where should I go and which one should I choose.